Semester one is now half way through and I have only just started to do some work. I have been struggling with both emotional and technical issues which I have allowed to have an influence on my efforts of participation on the course.
The thing I have really been struggling most with (emotionally) is the fact that I miss my friends and greatly miss northern college. Prior to doing the social sciences diploma there, I had done quite a lot of skills for life short courses. Northern college became a comfort zone and security blanket after my depression in 2007 and I think I am learning now just how dependent I became on it, the grounds and the staff........and it is hard to adjust. Also, I have just recently got my computer back after it fell ill when a graphics card was dropped in it. Not having the technology has been a bit of a pain in the arse really.
Another thing that has been bothering me is the fact that I couldn't use my magnification software in the library (or so I thought). This has contributed to me feeling isolated (being stuck in my room all the time) and demotivated. However *spud blushes*, I have since learnt that I was in fact using the wrong PC's and the magnification pen does work in the library after all. What a numpty! And that is me with the IT Essentials 1 certificate in hardware and software maintenance and an ECDL.
After last weeks humanistic theory and principles session I had a mentoring session. Stuart gave me a good verbal kick up the arse, which I think I neededto be honest. This has motivated me slightly and I have begun to look at a book and make notes on it for the essay. After discovering my software works, speaking to Stuart and reading the book, I am trying to focus on me and my feelings. I am trying to become more emotionally aware of myself in order that I may deal with minor falls like this and not become to concerned about them.
I have bitten the bullet early on, help wise, and I booked tutorials with all my tutors, additional support and my academic tutor to let them know how I am feeling and search out possible guidance and tips. As a result however, I have been asked to attend a meeting with the course director, leader, academic tutor etc next tuesday (3rd November) to discuss issues in participation. The letter was a bit formal and has made me nervous and left me wondering if I am in for a severe arse kicking :s.
I have been lucky so far, but I haven't escaped it...........................I have caught fresher's flu I think. It started the other day with a sore throat, chesty and painful cough and blocked nose. It has now progressed slighly with the addition of weakness and a runny nose - I HAVE MAN FLU!!!!!
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