Reading Week - The light has switched on (hopefully)

Reading week is nearly over now and I have managed to do some work. Not as much as I probably could have done or would have liked, but I am making some progress with the motivation and settling in issues. I would like to take the credit for the spur of energy that has enabled me, but I have to praise the counsellor, other students and the support team for it really. They have all contributed.

I have nearly finished (I hope) my part of the presentation and have also started reading other books for my essay in Humanistics. I have watched gowns, mortar boards, the beautiful people wearing them and their smartly dressed and proud family and friends pass me all day. It has made me feel genuine warmth and pride for them and encouraged me somewhat. That could be me in three years time and how proud would I feel? How proud would my family and friends feel? And how proud would Marie (my personal tutor at Northern College and good friend) feel? I owe it to them and to myself to do the very best I can, knuckle down and aim for that 2:1 goal I have set myself.

I have had appointments gallore all week and feel tired, and the week isn't over. Tomorrow, I have booked a room for us to do some work on the presentation and then I have an appointment with the Physio in the late afternoon. I did manage to get a wander in to town today for an hour or so and I would have enjoyed it if my lower back hadn't been hurting. I am planning on getting some work done over the weekend on my essay and hopefully even making a start on it. I also want to go to Wilkinsons at Cliffton Moor to get some more deodorant as I forgot to bring some back with me from home.

It is back to studies next week but I am also planning on managing my time better. I have not reached my learning peak and I do strongly believe that I have a lot of learning potential left in me.........I just hope I don't peak too soon-haha!!!!

Reading Week - Half way through the semester

Oh well, back home again for a few days.  It's reading week next week; ties in nicely with the graduation ceremonies for those who have done the hard work already.  Even though it is a nice and welcomed break, I do have lots of work to do.  Partly it is my fault because I haven't done anything but I have become demotivated by all the problems I have been having at uni'.

After booking an appointment to see all my course tutors and academic tutor, I received a letter instructing me to attend a course review.  I was pulled up by one of the tutors on the review panel about my participation in the presentation group.  I had missed a meeting due to having a tension headache and missed part of a meeting that wasn't planned due to having a pre-booked appointment with my mentor.  Rather than bring this to my attention, the tutor decided to raise in front of the review panel.........which rather pissedd me off.  I did name the feeling (as we are taught to name our thoughts) and he gave his explanation, but I am still pissedd off about it and am going to have a word with him after reading week.

I think I starting to turn a corner a little bit now in the way of how I am feeling.  I have been reading 'Person Centred Counselling in Action' as part of the notetaking for my essay but have been relating the information to how I feel.  I have been trying to focus more on how I am feeling and responding to throught so that I can look at it from a different perspective.

Sally (my support worker on Tuesdays and a counselling skills graduate) has drawn me up an action plan for reading week.  She has informed me that I had better have it done and she wants to see the work afterwards.  With that in mind, I better pop off and do a bit more-haha!